Brain Turbulence

Senioritus is identifiable by the following symptoms:

Un-motivation

Distraction

Lathargy

Impatience

Last Thursday it became very clear that in many ways I have Senioritus. Normally I try and pay close attention in class, try and participate, and try and help others. However over the last month or so, I have not been doing as good a job as I should.

I took 462 and 497 for two reasons, to get the most out of the technical writing courses that I could and to new technology experience. The classes have done just that. I got an Internship that went beyond expectation, learned new web developement software, learned about using collumns to line up and manage text in a document.

However as the quarter has worn down (now near the nub) I began getting distracted. I know senioritus is not the full reason, but it added an element to my life that I did not need.

I feel ashamed that I was disrespectful while a team was presenting, I like to think I am above being, "the disruptive guy." I know it causes uneeded stress to the teaching staff because they put an exhorbent amount of effort into running class and along come a student that, for lack of a better phase, doesn't give a shit, and disrupts others from learning. (I do give a shit however)

I have so many other things causing extreme amounts of chaos in my life, none of it is good, and the last thing I need is to be pissing off the people that are there trying to help. Right now I need more possitive experiences in my daily life and this is not the way to do it.

I hope that I can recover my relationship with my professor – I feel like I destroyed it. I hate having people mad at me, I like to restore balance. I don't like to worry about feeling ackward going to class.

I guess I will see what it is like when I go in :S

-G